My actions.

Josh · Post by **Josh** » Wed Nov 17, 2004 4:06 am

Well after a long talk with Shy (thanks shy) and me being in denial of every single thing she said, and still sort of am, I decided to come make this post an an appology to you all.

I don\'t know what my problem is, but I\'m sorry. I\'ve snapped at a couple of you for no reason..I\'m sorry. I\'m sorry I\'m not doing what I\'ve said I was going to do. I\'m sorry I haven\'t done anything for kg. I\'m sorry for everything. I\'m basically saying, I\'m sorry being who I am.

On a personal note: I\'m sorry tami for being such a rude jackass in messenger.

...~Josh

RuffRyders · Post by **RuffRyders** » Wed Nov 17, 2004 5:17 am

Obviously some of us are going to have disagreements and conflict, but we need to be strong & mature enough to move on and not let this nor anything else ruin the tremendous friendships we have and it's good to see you have Josh

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Trinity · Post by **Trinity** » Wed Nov 17, 2004 5:29 am

Good to see you working through your issues

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Electrix · Post by **Electrix** » Wed Nov 17, 2004 5:54 am

Good work in sorting it out.. Just hope it gets better for you =)

Josh · Post by **Josh** » Thu Nov 18, 2004 12:18 am

*cough* erm.. I won\'t ask about Leccy\'s avatar

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RuffRyders · Post by **RuffRyders** » Thu Nov 18, 2004 2:14 am

Neither will I

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Post by **Jim** » Thu Nov 18, 2004 2:37 am

mmm...ok i\'ll ask

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Josh · Post by **Josh** » Thu Nov 18, 2004 10:34 pm

I think I know what is wrong with me..

I feel like everyone is leaving me in KG... nero\'s gone.. mobes\' gone.. redrum is gone.. seems like the only people left is rift and nem

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Endo · Post by **Endo** » Thu Nov 18, 2004 11:29 pm

Gee..talk about making the rest of us feel welcome?! lol; how do you mean \'gone\' ?

Josh · Post by **Josh** » Fri Nov 19, 2004 12:20 am

relationship wise.

RuffRyders · Post by **RuffRyders** » Fri Nov 19, 2004 12:46 am

No one is gone, you're pushing everyone away.

We all care about you a great deal can't you see that?

Josh · Post by **Josh** » Fri Nov 19, 2004 1:14 am

see? this is the problem.. No one understands me either. (Yes yes yes I know, the most common excuse ever) I haven\'t pushed anyone away. Ever since school started it went down hill from there. I miss my time of being here at KG and mainly I miss my mobes and nero.. Then I always had redrum\'s (M) convo window open and we\'re usually talkin\' about stuff all day long and then I usually have another KG staffer in another window and we\'re talkin\' about stuff and now that doesn\'t happen. I have no activity on the internet nowa days. I only get jeremy popping up a msg at me (thanks jer

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You know, nothings been the same since everything started dying on me >.<

mobil1_oils · Post by **mobil1_oils** » Fri Nov 19, 2004 1:26 am

[11:10:11] [ & ] [redrum] huggles josh ({)
[11:10:13] [ + ] [Josh`] tries to fit a in there
[11:10:17] [ + ][ Josh` ] don't hug me >_<
[11:10:20] [ & ][ redrum ]

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[11:10:22] [ & ][ redrum ] ok
[11:10:23] [ + ][ Josh` ] no one can hug me
[11:10:23] [ & ][ Baralai ]

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[11:10:23] [ + ][ Josh` ] ever

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[11:11:01] [ + ][ Josh` ] I'm off limits to every individual in this room ;o

Josh · Post by **Josh** » Fri Nov 19, 2004 1:38 am

-.- was interreperered... erm check spelling on that word... wrong. I was just kidding. That\'s why I never talk in #killa because when I do it\'s taken the wrong way. I\'ve just figured it\'s best not to talk in there now

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edit:

[color=\"blue\"]and I figured someone would find humor in it when I said this:

(06:10:02 pm) [+][Josh`] and moppy
(06:10:14 pm) [+][Josh`] who isn\'t an \'individual\' but a water broom[/color]

mobil1_oils · Post by **mobil1_oils** » Fri Nov 19, 2004 1:52 am

[b][i][color=\"gray\"][font=\"tahoma\"]It's not that we don't care, we care alot. It's just alot of us are also sorting out quite a few problems, i have quite a few which have never seen the light of day, and i don't intend to tell anyone about, i never told my psychiatrist about it, i've never told my parents, ive never told anyone on the net, and i dont intend to spill them out openly anytime soon. Although we are here to help, and alot of us are trying our best, you have to understand that some of us have alot of

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apologies if any of this came out wrong/offensive, it was never meant to be, i just really cbf re-reading it.[/b][/i][/color][/font]