Dying...

[Electrix]

I can't cry, there's nothing left.
No emotion, no feeling, nothing.
Beyond caring, beyond needing, beyond hating.
beyond loving.
I need help but I can't face it.
I need the pain but I can't take it.
Want more time but I can't make it.
Feeling dirty, feel so degraded.
Every word I say is wrong, every action out of place, every smile is fake, tired of the lies.
My thoughts are tangled and dismembered. Lingering, taunting me and then fading just out of reach.
The day you came into the world was the birth of perfection. Beauty, for once, not skin deep, strength upon the surface for all to see, yet you cannot find the strength to save me?
Twisted and unwanted, "used-goods" so they called me.
I know I have been ruined, my innocence stolen and yet, no-one cares. It simply makes me easier to hurt.
Made weak by my fears, made strong by my tears.
Made hated by my friends, made admired by my enemies.
So what am I?
I am........dying.